(Nov 07) Lingering Discontent
Observing human beings, self included
one can often see a lingering discontent inside
that no chocolate, cigarettes, beer, clothes, sex, travel
or any of the entire earth's other
or any of the entire earth's other
little or mighty thrills can ever heal or satisfy.
Often originated sometime back ...
Often originated sometime back ...
An unconscious attempt to bury and forget
followed by the consequent unconscious
lifelong ''running away'' from then on.
For a long time while one is young
followed by the consequent unconscious
lifelong ''running away'' from then on.
For a long time while one is young
there is an open road ahead
offering multitudes of little or big opportunities
of numerous distractions fuelling the running away
as well as illusions of hope
that all is straightened, left behind, or forgotten
but eventually one reaches the end of the road
with a disturbing realisation
that there is nowhere to hide
nowhere to escape or to run to
and there is no other solution
than to stop, turn back and face it.
Blame will not heal, running away will not heal
avoiding will not heal, little or big thrills, acquisitions
achievements and recognitions will not ever heal
Even religion or spirituality will not heal
if sought solely as a refuge away from the problem.
It will keep welling up at every opportunity
but Only the " Fire " of persistent ''Living it'' can exhaust it.
"Feeling and Living it" in order to Know, Heal and Move on
is entirely different than for ever ''Dwelling in it''
blindly and without any purpose.
The purpose is to Know - Acknowledge and be Freed.
At times unbearable and very painful endeavour indeed
but with a tremendously liberating force.
Never to travel paths that lead into traps of pain again
Never to chase shadows of the past
or unconsciously create new ones for the future.
Never to chase illusions that did not ever exist in the first place.
Never to project or expect anything from anyone out there
for a need that can only be satisfied from inside.
Never to feel victim of any circumstances.
Takes time, continual awareness, alertness
and constant introspection but it is worth it
metaphorically speaking as much as the mortgage
that buys one their Own chosen home.
offering multitudes of little or big opportunities
of numerous distractions fuelling the running away
as well as illusions of hope
that all is straightened, left behind, or forgotten
but eventually one reaches the end of the road
with a disturbing realisation
that there is nowhere to hide
nowhere to escape or to run to
and there is no other solution
than to stop, turn back and face it.
Blame will not heal, running away will not heal
avoiding will not heal, little or big thrills, acquisitions
achievements and recognitions will not ever heal
Even religion or spirituality will not heal
if sought solely as a refuge away from the problem.
It will keep welling up at every opportunity
in different unrecognisable forms, seemingly unrelated
such as unwarranted anger, deep resentments
such as unwarranted anger, deep resentments
misplaced hostilities, unexplained tears or fears
or just as a deep dark lingering of ever present misery
that colours everything gray
and stifles - except temporarily - all aspects of life,
hope, expression and happiness.
There is no other way - no other solution
than to stop, turn back and face it.
Face it ... Feel it... Analyse it... Live it
and Live it again until it is spent dry...
Feel it and Live it or it will not go away!
Old suppressed unconscious pain
or just as a deep dark lingering of ever present misery
that colours everything gray
and stifles - except temporarily - all aspects of life,
hope, expression and happiness.
There is no other way - no other solution
than to stop, turn back and face it.
Face it ... Feel it... Analyse it... Live it
and Live it again until it is spent dry...
Feel it and Live it or it will not go away!
Old suppressed unconscious pain
is like dark murky petrol that its fumes pervade everything
ever ready to ignite in small explosions at a time
all throughout lifebut Only the " Fire " of persistent ''Living it'' can exhaust it.
"Feeling and Living it" in order to Know, Heal and Move on
is entirely different than for ever ''Dwelling in it''
blindly and without any purpose.
The purpose is to Know - Acknowledge and be Freed.
At times unbearable and very painful endeavour indeed
but with a tremendously liberating force.
Never to travel paths that lead into traps of pain again
Never to chase shadows of the past
or unconsciously create new ones for the future.
Never to chase illusions that did not ever exist in the first place.
Never to project or expect anything from anyone out there
for a need that can only be satisfied from inside.
Never to feel victim of any circumstances.
Takes time, continual awareness, alertness
and constant introspection but it is worth it
metaphorically speaking as much as the mortgage
that buys one their Own chosen home.
* The word 'Never' is not to be interpreted as a once off effort.
It is used for emphasis of a slow yet steady and definite result.
In time it can come to mean true.
In time it can come to mean true.
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